What a totally crazy couple of weeks!! Too crazy to describe – too many whirling (not spinning) plates!!!
The big BUT in all of this busy-ness is some really rich & sweet fellowship. I’m finding this to cause my head to tilt at present because my previous experiences have been then when i get insanely busy it seems that my interactions w God get lost in the whirlwind dust somewhere. BUT, these last few weeks have been different – i’ve had a richness & sweetness w God that’s continued below the surface frenzy. its been most interesting to still sense some very deep & rich fellowship w God in the midst of seriously crazy schedules, demands, etc. What this says to me is that God is pretty intent about having a relationship w us. On the human side & being dreadfully honest, i’ve also been in a really needy state of being – needing God in all the stratas of life where i interact. maybe i’m getting over any personal dignity & accepting that at ground zero, i’m a needy person, even if that puts me in the pariah category.
i just need God, plain & simple – whether i’m busy or bored, popular or pariah, floundering or fulfilled – i just need God