fellowship with Jesus

I’m pretty turned on with Jesus – He makes my heart palpitate & captivates my attention.  I love to have fellowship with Him, be around Him, recognize His work, listen for His whispers, think about His preferences . . . .  I’m simply & happily absorbed by Him.

But here’s the fun part of my relationship with Jesus – it takes place not only in my quiet & private prayer time with Him, but I’m experiencing & aware of Him, more and more, throughout my day.  This is interesting because my days have such tremendous diversity.  On any given day, I might be studying for a sermon, cooking some experimental dish, trying to settle a conflict (among my kids, in a misunderstanding at work, . . . . ), trying to develop my video editing skills, talking about helping starving babies in Angola, getting on a plane to go minister somewhere, getting makeup put on for TV taping, wearing an orange safety vest for my crossing guard fun, . . . . . . .  What I’m finding to be so magnificent is that I get to experience & interact with Jesus in all of these contexts & even more.  I used to get frustrated about my relationship with Jesus because it seemed very limited & one dimensional – almost like I couldn’t seem to export Him from my prayer time into the daily living.

Of late, I haven’t had this struggle.  I’m sensing Jesus throughout my days & the fellowship with Him is rich beyond description.  Please check out Psalms 25 & consider reading it slowly, with some reflection 🙂

Opposition and Open Doors

I was reading 1 Cor 16 a few days ago & something really struck me, especially in relation to some recent events.  To be really honest with you, this past week has been pretty rough.  There have been some family challenges, work frustrations and personal struggles that all seemed to culminate within a 48 hour timeframe.  By the time I got to the end of the week, I felt rather beat up & waylaid.  In the same timeframe, I also read 1 Cor 16:9 where Paul talks about a wide open door for effective ministry being opened to him with many adversaries.  This is the same guy who said that we wrestle not against flesh & blood but against powers, principalities & rulers of darkness. 

So here’s my great revelation:  just because God gives us some pretty amazing opportunities doesn’t mean that the devil is going to simply walk away & stop bothering us.  Keep walking through the doors that God opens for you regardless of the opposition – keep going.  Resistence can be a good indicator that you’re on the right track 🙂

soul train

We recently watched the movie, “How to Train a Dragon” & we really enjoyed it – lots of laughing & fun!  After the movie, my kids & I were talking about how the guy worked to train Toothless, his dragon.  One of my kids said to me, “Mom, are you trying to train me?!?”  I busted out laughing because it was a really cute & innocent question, making me smile in my heart 🙂

This question also started me thinking about the idea of “training” & what it means in various contexts – physical training, educational training, etc.  To understand the training process, we need to think about how training is achieved – through discipline, education & direction.  So lately, I’ve been thinking about the idea of soul training.  If we think about our souls as the combination of our mind, will and emotion, then soul training would be the training of our mind & thoughts, the training of our emotions and the training of our will.  So with this idea of training, it begs the question, “Who does the training?”  For me, I’ve decided that the training of my soul is through the Holy Spirit, using lots of different tools including the Bible, people, situations, etc.  I don’t want to be a victim of my emotions or my thoughts or my will.  I want to be trained by & domesticated to the Holy Spirit.  I find that soul training is less painful when I cooperate rather fight the process.

Soul training has eternal benefits 🙂