I was talking with a friend the other day & she was explaining that there was a long season in her life of tremendous insecurity because she felt inadequate & incompetent. When we were talking, my ears perked up because there are alot of times when I feel incompetent & inadequate. I get these feelings when I’m around people who are really good at various things – be that computer stuff, athletic stuff, makeup & hair stuff, Bible stuff, details & scheduling, yada, yada, yada – when I get in the inadequate mindset, the list becomes interminable & insecurity becomes entrenched in my worldview. From this point, everything just goes downhill & that’s why my ears really perked up when my friend & I were discussing this topic.
When I asked her how she dealt with this struggle, she gave me this absolutely fantastic verse in 2 Cor 3:5 – Not that we are adequate in ourselves to consider anything as coming from ourselves, but (A)our adequacy is from God. She explained that she has come to the reality that she is incompetent & inadequate. Furthermore, despite all of her hard work & best efforts, she has concluded that its never enough. She said that when she realized this, there was tremendous liberty because she could lean back & rest in God’s ability & adequacy – that God works through us His ability & results for impossible situations. Truly, we are incompetent and this is the starting point in our lives for God to work into our daily living. With this in mind, I can celebrate my inability & weakness because these shortcomings provide the space for God to be Himself to me 🙂
Enough is an interesting word. It makes me think of other words like, full, satisfied, adequate and others. I’ve been thinking about this word in many different ways – one of them related to rhubarb 🙂 You see, when I was growing up, we had a few rhubarb plants & my mom would make these really tasty rhubarb desserts. So over the last 5 years, I’ve tried to remember to buy some rhubarb plants to plant in the Spring. I’ve failed because I always remembered too late & the stores were all out of rhubarb plants. But this year is different 🙂 I bought a few plants over the Easter weekend & I’m really excited to plant them – now I’m just trying to figure out where. I want to make sure that I get them in a place with enough sunlight – enough being the operative word.
Of late, the word “enough” has been interrupting all kinds of thoughts – making me think that I don’t have “enough.” Maybe you’re like me & perhaps you wish you had more time, more energy, more wisdom, more money, more sleep, more sun, more friends, more help, more love, more rhubarb ,) more patience, more . . . . . just plain more. God & I have been chatting about this dilemma – maybe I would be more accurate to say that we’ve been wrestling about this topic.
So its interesting to note that yesterday in my Bible time I read Ps 107:9, “He satisfies the hungry and fills the hungry with good things.” Furthermore, I’ve been studying about God’s grace this morning & He tells me that His grace is “enough”. Perhaps my challenge is that I’m looking to my own resources more than looking to God as my provider. When I see God as my provider, then I can trust that whatever He gives me is “enough.” But when I get my focus off of God & onto myself or something else, then I easily fall into the lack trap – never enough.
Ever struggle with keeping your focus on God? What are some things that you’ve found helpful in keeping your focus centered on God? Would love to hear your thoughts 🙂
If you haven’t read the post below this one, i’d encourage you to read that one 1st – its short & sweet & will help you understand this post. Here’s my counter-point from what i said below – Jesus gives us what we need, when we need it; nothing less or late. There was a season in my life when i would’ve argued this point & there are times when i still find myself not so happy w His choices for me. Nevertheless, i still believe this is true: Jesus gives us what we need, when we need it.
Now here’s some of my thinking: there are times when we’ve asked Jesus to do something & He hasn’t done what we asked. In some ways, this relieves me because it gives me confidence in Him that He’s going to make decisions for me outside of my preferences. This is comforting to me because i think this is what all good parents do. If i gave my kids everything they wanted, they would have some serious struggles. Furthermore, i have confidence in God that He makes better decisions for my life, than i do (He’s got more wisdom, insight, understanding, etc). Now i’m not advocating that we dismiss prayer as futile. But i’d encourage you to view prayer from a conversation perspective moreso than a request perspective. While i think that the Bible encourages us to make our requests to be made known to God (Philip 4), be careful not to get pouty if you don’t get your way – i’m speaking mostly to myself here. 😉