empty versus full

I’ve been thinking alot about what it means to be filled w the Holy Spirit & here’s some real gut-level honesty:  there are times when i feel “empty”.  I’ve been chatting w God about this, particularly in relation to what He says in Eph 1:23 – Jesus fills all things (in the context of “church”) in every way.  With this verse, the truth says that He fills all things, including me, in every way.  So if this is true, then why do i sometimes feel “empty”? 

Here’s what I sense Him saying to me:  if you fill up a glass w milk, you can see, feel & taste the milk.  If you empty the milk out of the glass, its not empty, but rather filled w something other than milk – air.  The glass isn’t empty, when there’s no milk, but to our senses, it is empty.  I think in a similar way, when Jesus lives in our heart, we’re never truly empty, but we are filled in a way that isn’t always flesh aware.  So with Jesus in my heart and as His student, i want to learn Him, interact w Him & become sensitized to Him.  I’m not nearly as empty as i may feel, from time to time  🙂

Something for you to ponder  🙂

insights on my kids

Watching my kids grow is simply fascinating – full of delight, awe, pleasant surprises & very astounding.  Here are some recent developments:

David – wants to buy a box of girlscout cookies & keep them for awhile & then re-sell them for more than he bought them for.  He COMPLETELY came up w this scheme on his own.  Furthermore, he also has the plan to sell part of the ABC juice (apples, beets & carrots – uber healthy) that we make to mimi (grandma) twice a month to make money.  This entrepeuner thing just surfaced recently.  Needless to say, I’m speechless bc i didn’t even consider thinking this way until at least high school & probably more like post college.  (pawns in chess are ponds)

Isabell:  the long hair is pretty much lost on me, given that i’ve enjoyed short hair & its simplicity for close to 2 decades.  She is growing her hair to cut if off & donate it to locks of love for kids w cancer.  Furthermore, its really cool to watch her confidence grow as she overcomes various insecurities to achieve goals that she has set for her self – selling girlscout cookies has been the recent platform for this personal growth.  I see her thinking, growing & living in the present w great contentment.

Benji:  everything he does has some wiggle (except now as I’m watching him play Reece in chess – take it back, he just went to the bathroom).  Anyways, he’s wonderfully generous & relational, with eyes full of life, creativity & happiness.  And today, we got to ski w Benji & he was simply fantastic.  I love that he watches his older brother to grow, learn & play.  I’m glad he’s a kind person because a mean person with his intelligence would be scarey.

I’m blown away by my kids.